A PARROT AND HER BOYFRIENDS

   Yes I have attemped to write many times but found mysel in a new geography which I had never experienced before. Cretivity , adaptation , new words to describe the life , myself ,parrots , my own people who keep their stereo-typical mothertounges.
 
   Yes I have attemped to write many times about my new and/or old addictions. When you are in deep depression - or the author likes to say "deep" , to make his dilemmas fancy- you basicly feel insecure everywhere. You try to wake up stronger every morning. You have the battle with your logic and the reality of life. When you mention adaptation , it shows itself repeatitively and no one can make the difference easily between the natural reality and the fake forms of it. Fake ones kept my mind busy for a long time. Perhaps
it appeared long time ago but kept its cocoon secret till few months ago.
 
   This cocoon conquered my mind recently and has been affecting me in daily life harder than before. It is barely easier with my gender. Easy to catch his lies , sincerity but other gender has survived especially by this skill , probably. In the journey we had , to evolve , followed the same patterns. Humanity has made some movements, especially in the last two centuries and carries on. However ; with the great progress , people caused few problems which retard the evolution. Population and education. I told about the golden age of the governments almost a year ago which I can not claim that those were all holy relics and must have been read several times and accepted as a beginning of a brand new religion. I wont be playing the creator or a prophet characters here. In this golden age on each level or class we have lost the balance or correct word shall be ` to change`. The speed , rythym , harmony have been changed or got faster , therefore people like me struggle to understand. We can include the dictionary meaning of happiness indeed. I either forgot the meaning of happiness or the meaning does not fill the blanks. In the end "to struggle" takes it role and motivates me to think the dark side of the moon.
 
   During last year I tried to change my habbits , the news I follow , food I eat , the amount of food , speed of consuming , etc. And most of the time , I have teased myself to believe in the coolest idea of being stronger. Yes , you have freewill and people who used to tell you what to do are in minimum. It was easy when you were a child for endless imagination. Yes , we are good at immitation. This ability made us keep our knowledge fresh and always has found a way to improve itself.
 
   If I want to see as a problem , it is a problem which the following step should be a solution to a problem , is my problem. The places I ve been to, the groups , villages , tribes , cities , countries , ideas made an influence as its nature, however ; I never used any sticker to describe myself except when I was in another journey as a teenager. Nationality should be the most complex one when you try to express yourself  like a world citizen. The mind ; especially mine , surprises me non-stop. The hobbies I like to or used to do , automaticly prepared a label. The image of myself could mean three four things at the same time , either to related or unrelated groups. I told once or several times that "Racism simply starts with choosing a fruit from the shelf". Choosing something , ignoring something make us feel as the idea of god. We satisfy our ego easily. - Plenty of dilemmas which I am dying to write now , are flying on my mind- but , I have to stick on my labels first. As a mediterrenian man and as being a man naturally , I have beard and I like and sometimes love my beard. I will tell you what beard could mean totally different things to imitators who I have to communicate with and breath the same air and eat the same food and gain the same vitamins like them in this small and high populated world.
 
   The beard I used to have , evolved itself in different shapes and length , however it couldnt go further than called itself beard on a wheat coloured skin. The beard I have had , inspired from daily moods of mine and never meant to take a role in any of these funny situations. In same dy in three different places it`s called different words. Not to beard eventually , to me. In the first place I was called a terrorist by the boss image who is coming from a wealthy europan country's village and probably she just atched American - British movies which just show eastern people purely bad. Obviously the movies and Londoners who belong to eastern countries¬ lifestyle could not help her to think of other ideas.
 
   The other observer of this city has seen me and called that I look like a satanist. This one is a bit challenging because satan and satanist words' background has a hilarious story behind. A music kind with wierd costumes , strange kind of make ups , strange kind of lyrics and those bloody black t-shirts would not give a great impression to a less developed country. After making 3-4 days non-stop news on television , just motivates you that rock music is bad and listeners love to sacrifise cars and wear black clothes. I will never forget the news of Iron Maiden concert few years before the milleniom. " The bass guitarist of Iron Maiden took the attention with his "wierd" dance." Definetely my neighbour who runs a mexican restaurant has had billions of resons to call me like that.
 
   The third one is slightly tricky and perhaps developed otself because of her conditions. Two bearded guys run into each other in the queue of the toilet in Victoria Park and one of us had to pass first. Because of London , you choose to be polite in nice parks. You let others pass for instance. But I would not have expected to be called myself teddy bear. Teddy bear is called to bearded homosexual guys in London or maybe everywhere. The only condition she had is I am good looking and she is not. This condition just blurs the situation. Yes , she has seen two guys with beard, therefore she perhaps liked one of us but two guys who are letting each other pass politely , made her offended.
 
   In three different places I was belong to totally different mentalities , however; I was the same guy in each place. I did not do anything special to give any of the impressions.
 
   The world we understand , should be always more than this , at least I have had myself believed.
They understand this way but is this a free will? Who has a free will button to use in circumstances? Am I the one who is stucked in past and in its conditions? Can I just explain it with the education, and according to it , with population? What are the dfferences from Roman Empire time? What is changed?
 
   Another question : Is it related to education system or the journey of evolution we all talk about , is this much slow? True that we inspire eachother , the relationship we have , improves our minds and if there was no weapon for instance , no one would try to improve it.
 
   Could anyone who is reading this , can make the difference betwee a parot or a pet in your house and a human being who you are in a relationship? How do you stop your pet , not to eat more?
 
   I should come back to this article again...