I read what I wrote yesterday , it sounds boring enough. I could not find anything except questions in it. Thinking millions of abstract facts and combining them together ,could give you a salad to consume. I know there will be always some spices to give a taste - perhaps only my taste- but it does not look like a delicious salad. While I am reading I think , put whatever I found on my mind. Some of them are common , cliche and answered. This will not make me satisfied. You always can make determinations but as you see opinions which sound right and fill each wholes ; you step forward to change the mistaken parts of your life(I do not know if I can change myself , habbits and more during this venture).
I have been or felt foreigner ,alien in childhood, in my hometown , in my country and normally in London.
When I think about my roots , I would not imagine myself here in Brick Lane , typing intangible ideas in English.
A quick story to begin, when I was a kid , our neighbour once warned me not to whistle in closed areas(like apartment buildings ) and added "I would call evil by whistling". My life has begun just with this silly childish question. I asked myself ,just to myself , not to anyone else , "How come?" You are extremely excited about your whistling skill ; an older human who you believe with no doubts, warns and your first spark , confusion comes into your life. And never stopped entering my life , we can call as superstitions , believes , traditions , languages , etc.
I will go back to being an alien in this rich life. When I was at age 5-6 , that old uncle touched into my life with these words : curiosity , evil , invisible things , etc( I have kept whistling and I believe ,as a smoker ; have developed my breathe-control and mostly it relaxes my body). I am sure he was just concerned about the noise but describing the fact could have made me obey to the system , but think about a child who has no idea about evil and I am sure children are more brave than matures. You are free to be crazy and noone can judge your imaginations till a spesific period.
Trying to guess and then understand human behavior is harder than inventing a thing. What makes me say previous sentence. At the end of age 20s , probably because of being physically mature ,you begin giving up discovering your inner feelings and society compels you to concern about more serious expectations. A strong connection of this period or breaking point in your personal time , should be being in less control. You do not have strong parents' control which dismantle your walls however on the contary this freedom or the position that identified like 'freedom' is an illusion. Just because of limits you had before ,are not similar to your new time. The societies' enforcements take you to a different situation. The necessities will be written again. Do we need all these necessities? Does curiosity make us spend our time in material flavours? Do personal manners only should belong to believes , religions? Should everyone consume and obey what the system or society gives? What really makes us think less and consume more? I can expand the questions like in my previous boring article. Another critical question which I believe shall be answered is "ARE WE JUST TRYING NOT TO GET BORED WHILE WE ARE WAITING TO DIE?" , just to avoid the reality or the idea of death. It can be easily answered with one life. In common belief everyone has one life , and the time can not be taken back. Even if we will die , why consuming can not make us happy enough? Do you think you are happy enough?
In Idiocracy movie which has an interesting subject unless it is a bad comedy movie , in 500 years , people who has lower IQ give more low IQ'ed children and a small group who has high IQ level always concern about their future children and High IQ'ed group decides not to have children in this kind of world. Easy to guess what kind of human things will happen for whom has not seen. There are plenty of movies similar to Idiocracy. The point I am concerned , the great ideas from 18th to 21st century which shaped our world and we felt like changed the chemistry of the humanity ,have become dreams. With the speed of todays' world , changings are incredibly out of control , and mostly to control our lives. The governments are in their golden age. How can I stand against this enforcement? Feeling odd compare to other social apes. I do not think we have got different rules than other social living things. Until we change the codes of our genes , we will bequeath our wild part. I need to admit that we are as free as we ignore the rules , consciously and/or unconsciously.
In this long and seeming endless journey comparing to our life span we will keep questioning. Thus we have to discover and invent non-stop , because we are the biggest migrant group of this nature who have thinking skills and are curious and perfectionist.
Is it ruthless to call people who are just born to consume , obey and die ; are just chickens in city henhouses?
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